I'm not a movie type of person. I don't enjoy sitting and watching a movie, if I do it definitely is one that is under 2 hours. A dinner and a movie date have never been my "go-to". I get bored easily and get distracted. I enjoy books that are fast read for this exact reason.
Yesterday we watched Air.
What a movie, heck even my husband cried. For anyone wondering it doesn't take a lot to get his happy tears flowing. Air was a movie that made you feel instantly inspired. It reminds me of when my siblings and I would watch Wimbledon. We were like we can do that, we would go to the nearest tennis courts, slap a couple balls and soon realize we weren't even close to the William's sisters. But we felt the inspiration inside of us.
Don't get me wrong, I won't be buying myself a pair of Air Jordans anytime soon.
But the one quote stuck with me all day. "A shoe is just a shoe until someone steps into it". This applies to so many parts of our life. An object is just an object unless you make it more. A house is just a house until you make it a home. A paycheck is just money unless you invest in something with it. (Not saying to spend tons of money on something you won't use just to do it. But if you invest in yourself with it and use the home exercise equipment or buy better food to fuel your body. It's more than just money.) Words are also just words. Unless there is an action associated. (When my husband apologizes he always says I know I have to show you not just say sorry. His right actions are more than words) A gift is just a gift. Unless there is thought and love behind it. For example sometimes just showing up means more than a Venmo transfer.
We must learn about our audience and ourselves in order to make objects more than just objects. Just because someone has something also doesn't mean it's something you are meant to have. As people, we choose how to spend our time, money, and love. No one is guaranteed a specific amount.
I find myself slowly letting the suffocating thoughts of people's opinions of me finally dissipate. I realize you can't stop people from saying hurtful things or painting you as the bad guy. At first, I was trying to stop them because I didn't want to constantly have to defend myself, especially my stepkids. But no matter how many good things I do, opinions will be made and those good things may be forgotten.
A role is just a role until someone steps into it.
You can do the best you can do. Somedays it will feel like you are in Wimbleton serving like Serena Williams. On other days you are at the high school tennis courts trying to figure out how to use your backhand.
